i'm waiting for my summer vacation.

Seriously. Where is it? I don't know what it is about this year, but I want a real honest-to-God summer break like I've never wanted it before. My parents used to tell me that once you graduate college, life is truly just one workday after another. I'm feeling that right now. It's easy for me to be very active in the morning, but the afternoon comes and I just hit this slump and don't want to do anything.

I'm still trying to get this whole 'life' thing settled. Clearly I'm not doing what I want to be doing because I feel very stagnant. I mean, I love my job in the sense that out of all of the positions open to me at this company, this is the one that fits me best. However, it's not what I want to be doing long-term. I'm trying to motivate myself to apply to school, because I don't think I can deal with another year of stagnation. I wonder where I'll end up next year. I love the Bay Area, but I'm such a New Yorker. I wonder which one will win out. I'm also petrified to ask for teacher recommendations because I'm not one of those girls that's easily remembered by professors. I'm sure they're used to getting tons of requests, though. I have to finish all of that by next week - at least sending out the requests. I've started to brainstorm my personal statement. I don't even know what you're supposed to write in a personal statement. I'm trying to leave race/gender out of it because I don't want to define myself solely in those terms. I'm thinking I'll talk about the blood clot and near-death experiences. I hope it's not too cheesy and/or ridiculous.

My feminist task force meeting got canceled today, so I should have plenty of time to get primped and packed for DC. This weekend is going to be fabulous!