pretty good for under 3 hours of sleep.

I'm actually surprisingly productive and awake considering my bout of extreme insomnia last night. Of course, my body woke me up at 7 am even though I went to bed around 4:45 am. I managed to stay in bed for another 45 minutes, but without sleeping. I feel a little better this morning. We're signing our lease at 12:30 pm so that's moving along and I'm starting to plan out the things I need to do to move out of and be settled with the old apartment shit and getting excited about planning for the new apartment. The thing with TG is bothering me less after a major dish session with Jama and College BFF. I guess I just hate seeing him with someone else, especially someone else I don't think is all that attractive. Which is shallow and catty, I know. But, let's be real. We're all fairly shallow and catty; I'm just not sugarcoating it for anyone. Granted, they may not be together, so I should reserve all judgment until I know, but I just have this feeling. So we'll see how often I talk to him based on these recent developments.

I was thinking today of something my mother said to me the other day. I was telling her how much I wanted to get out of my current apartment and neighborhood and she said, "Well, you just like change. It's not in your nature to stay anyplace for too long. And that's fine, but that's just how you are." I guess I never thought about it like that. I really am very into change and switching things up and sometimes I recognize that, but I didn't realize that it was such a huge part of my personality. I also didn't realize that my mother noticed it as well. It worries me sometimes, because how will I ever settle down if I always have this desire for something new and exciting? On the other hand, I think I'll live a more varied life and I'll come out better for it. I guess I just need to start plotting my next move since I clearly can't bear to be anywhere for too long.