i can't think of anything to say.

I'm having serious blogger's block right now. My officemate is making fun of me and suggesting I write about her killer dance moves (as I type this she's rocking out to Caribbean music - *help me*). I'm doing what I do best - extreme procrastination. Tell me how I'm walking a half-marathon on June 6th and my ass has not been exercising AT ALL. I am so fucked it's not even funny. I'm also thinking about boys a lot. I really just want some physical affection. Someone to hug or snuggle up to. I mean, sex would also be phenomenal, but I'll take what I can get. I'm excited about Fleet Week! I want a sailor boy to call my own for an evening --- maybe two. There's also my trip to Rhode Island for Commencement, but I highly doubt anything romantic will come out of that. But, it'll be a fun time with the girls, exploring our old college haunts. Wow, I just said 'haunts' - I should just kill myself and get it over with.

Tonight I'm going to a soccer game! The New York Red Bulls with Slindy and friends. I'm excited - I like live sporting events, even though I know nothing about soccer. And then it's the weekend! I plan on peacing out from work tomorrow at 2pm and taking a nice, long nap.

Since I really have nothing to say, I should probably shut up and get back to work. Peace out, lovelies!

i'm tired.

No, seriously. I'm really fucking tired. Like physically exhausted. I don't know what the hell is up with me, but I can barely keep awake during the day. At least I managed not to pass out early like a freak last night. I'm contemplating staying home tomorrow or taking a half-day. I have meetings until 2 pm, but after that I think I plan on peacing out and going to sleep until my phone date with MB. I have a sorority sister staying with me, but she's literally just sleeping at my place, so I imagine I'll be pretty dull and boring on Friday night and I have no other plans for the weekend.

Unsure if I should see what the Intellectual is up to. We haven't talked since Sunday, which is okay now, because I'm sort of used to not communicating with him often. It's almost like I'm weaning myself off of contact with him. Even though I've had some pretty hot daydreams about him recently. Haha. I'm such a pervert - it's really nuts. I just don't know what to do next or if I'm even pursuing this. I want him like whoa, but I'm also very tired and don't know if I have the stamina to really give this the attention it deserves. Its a difficult thing. I need advice. Maybe when I can stay up long enough to receive it, I'll ask for some. Sigh.

Life is blah lately. I'm excited for next weekend - we have so many things planned - birthday parties, broadway show, movies, housewarming, comedy show. Hopefully I feel better by then! =)

zen.

Lately, I really haven't felt much like blogging. I don't know why - that's not like me. I like to document everything I do, even my most mundane tasks. Although, I suppose with the way social media is spreading like wildfire, I pretty much already do that. There's facebook and twitter and tumblr, each one of those captures various aspects of my life and my personality.

Life is surprisingly okay. I feel like I really need to start getting serious about eating right and working out. Hearing that TG is getting a trainer and trying hard to lose all the weight he's gained has only added to my desire to be thinner. That and the fact that the man that I'm currently hooking up with looks like he was sculpted from marble. Although, I don't think he really has any problems with me. I told him I was going on a diet and he asked me, "why?" HAHA. Gotta love that.

I'm trying to be positive and upbeat because sometimes work and co-workers and stress make me angry and I want to lash out at people, but I know that that's not the best way to do things. So I'm calming my temper down. I've been very zen lately. It's almost odd. I'm so used to being owned and controlled by my emotions that it's strange when I'm not wigging out. I'm even shocked about this boy thing. I mean, I like the Intellectual and I frequently crave more contact with him, but I don't act on it. And I'm not upset about not acting on it. I just think - oh, I'd like to talk to him - and then I decide not to, and then it's fine. I guess maybe I should reach out a little, but I'm perfectly fine not doing it. I'm just ho humming along.

I swear I'll try and do something interesting so I can write about it, but right now it's all quiet on the western front.

slooooow day.

Work is agonizingly slow today. I literally have next to nothing to do and tonight is the holiday party, so I want to peace out early to run some errands beforehand. I'm wearing a borrowed dress, so I need to find appropriate shoes and I need a toy for a tot and some wine for when Jama and I pre-game. SO MUCH TO DO. Hopefully other people leave early so I don't feel guilty. I also have to shower. GAH! I'm so far behind.

Anyhow, life is uninteresting right now. So that's all. Hopefully I'll have more to post about tomorrow.

rut.

Ugh, my life is so boring right now. Haha - I don't have anything going on, really. I'm still apartment hunting like mad, praying to God I find something soon. I have this one place that I really really really like, but I don't know if they're going to take me. I'm praying that they do, though. I have no romantic prospects on the horizon, and hell, even if I did, it's not like I have anyplace to take them. There is this hottie who rides the train in the morning, though. He's super cute, dark skin, banging body, and he's always studying on the train. But, I mean, I doubt anything's going to happen there. Sigh.

I need to either get laid or have something absolutely fabulous happen to me in the next 72 hours or I'm going to kill someone. Seriously. On the bright side, no rent right now means I have a lot of extra cash flow. Can someone say shopping spree this weekend? AND hair. AND nails. AND brows.

Hottttt.

outside of my drama, life is pretty boring.

I wish I had something interesting to tell you. Until I feel settled here in NYC, I can't really do anything all that interesting. I'm supposed to go out tonight with Same High School Same College Friend, but now because of some last minute scheduling stuff I think I'm going to have to hold off on that, which kind of sucks, but whatever. I think I'm going to go home, have some friends over at 7, and then maybe head back into Manhattan to chill and kick it out there. Then back home around 11 or so. We'll see. I'll update more when I have the time, strength, and energy.

tired, uninspired.

I am incredibly tired right now. It's hard for me to keep my eyes open and I'm seriously considering going back on my 'no caffeine' rule and just downing coffee and/or soda. Work is stressing me out. I'm doing a lot, but I also feel like I could be doing more. AHHHH I don't know.

I also feel incredibly ugly right now. I don't know why - maybe because I'm breaking out. I feel gross. But, I'm going to try and up my gym attendance this week. I went twice last week, so I'm going to go for 3 times this week. I went yesterday, so hopefully I can do it again today, but with all this work, I don't know. However, I need to start paying attention to my health. Although with all this damn food around here, it's nearly impossible. So I figure if I work out like mad that'll compensate.

Anyway, this is not the time nor the place for me to be bitching about this, especially since my command of the English language is rapidly decreasing.

In other news, I bought a new book. It's about Madame de Pompadour, a mistress of Louis XV. So far, it's really interesting. Kind of like Sex with the King, but more of a case study. 

Okay, back to work. I was only updating to update.

so incredibly tired.

I am about ready to fall down in  my tracks. I don't know why... I've been going to bed every day at like 10 pm and waking up at 6. Eight hours is wayyy more sleep than I usually get. Maybe I just need to come in late tomorrow. That might help.

OMG, so excited --- tomorrow starts Russian class! I am SO stoked. I miss taking a language class and I'll also get to meet some new people at work, which is really exciting.

In other news, I'm headed to Martuni's tonight. It's this piano/martini bar. I cannot wait. I think it'll be good times. I'm probably going to want to turn in early though.

Sorry for the lame update. My brain is pretty much dead.