I've been spending a lot of time thinking and researching this weekend, which is nice. Sometimes I hate doing and would rather spend time inside my own mind. I'm still trying to figure out what kind of person I want to become and what matters the most to me. I feel like I'm always chasing the idea of happiness, but haven't put as much thought as I should into what that means. So I just end up blindly throwing myself into situations that I think will yield the desired outcome, and then get upset when that doesn't happen.
Too often, I find myself living for other people. I have a lot of really close relationships and sometimes I take the actions of others too seriously, even if they don't involve me. I need to start focusing on my own actions and let other people live their own lives. I also need to stop caring what people think about the things I do. There are times when I want to share things about myself with the world, but I stop short because I'm afraid of how one or two people will take those revelations. At the end of the day, you can only be who you are. I think by being more open about who I am and the things that matter to me, I will attract more positivity into my life and that will bring me happiness. I just need a plan of action and attack, which I've slowly been forming this weekend.
This is one of my favorite times of year - the end of December, a time for reflection on the past and planning for the future. A time for change.

